I have thought about blogging. But not for more than a nanosecond.
The truth, the sad, sad, truth is that I have finally come to a time in my life where I sincerely do not have the time for it! It was easier when my big kids were little and there were only three of them. Now that there are five of them and two of them are homeschooling, I have found that I have very little time for anything but life.
I have a house helper, Gemma, who comes to help me a couple of days a week, and she helps with the house and the kids and really whatever I need her to do. But I am STILL BUSY all day long. It's weird. But hey, at least my house looks better than it did, and I am thankful for being able to focus on the kids more than the housework.
I know a lot of people do it alone, and I applaud them. I suppose I could do it, but I wouldn't be very nice. I'm pretty certain of that. That's where we were headed about a month ago. People who have twins will understand me when I say that it really is harder with twins. Pulling the "twin card" is my new normal. But honestly, there is no other explanation (except that I may just be crazy???). So, if I pull the "twin card" with you, just smile and nod and pray for me!
Sam is doing well in school. I know, not a big surprise! He's super smart and very inquisitive and thoughtful. Maryn is also excelling in school and enjoying it so much. She really loves to be doing her schoolwork. Sam and Maryn have been spending their free time building a "circus" out in the yard with old firewood. It's so cute.
I decided to start trying to pottytrain Lucy again. She will be three in 12 days, and my other two kids did well at 3. She is no exception. She had success for two days in a row with a couple of accidents, and then today, she has peed in the potty three times, pooped once, and so far, has had no accidents today! She is gaining confidence and excitement, and I'm so proud of her. It really is best to wait until they're ready.
Felix is jabbering a lot. He also likes to carry toys around in his mouth while he crawls around. He looks like a puppy. He is so cute. I swear he can say "dog." He is doing well with baby food and some table food.
Milo is starting to screech a lot. He is also trying to walk. He's taken many steps, but he usually has to be coaxed. He is gaining a lot of weight too and looking so cute and chubby. He LOVES to eat. I think it is his favorite thing to do.
Both babies are sleeping in their own room. They aren't sleeping through the night, but at least they're in their own room and Dave and I don't have to tiptoe anymore.
We took a vacation to Oklahoma City and Tulsa and then Northwest Arkansas. It was exhausting but fun. Maybe someday, I will think about uploading some pictures. Well, Milo sounds sad, so I better go, but that is what is going on in our lives. Hopefully, I can find more time for this, but right now, it isn't looking like it!
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Friday, November 4, 2011
Monday, September 26, 2011
Recommendations for Twins
I currently know four people in my circle of friends who are having twins! In thinking about what it was like to be pregnant with twins, I thought it might be a blessing for them to know how I did it. Of course, they may not care, and that's okay too, but just in case they want advice from someone who is a few steps ahead, here are some recommendations based on my experience.
1. If you're breastfeeding, get this nursing pillow. It is great. Once I had them latched on, I was hands-free! It's awesome. It is generous in size, and I have used it from the time I got home with the boys. Now, my boys were term and Felix weighed 6 lbs 12 oz, and Milo weighed 7 lbs 5 oz, so they were not teeny tiny preemies. This may not work for you until they get bigger if yours end up coming early. But I love it, and STILL use it and my boys are 9 months old.
Double Blessings Twin Nursing Pillow (stock photo from doubleblessings.com)
2. I wanted a lightweight, inexpensive double stroller. Another twin parent recommended a side by side as one twin may not like being behind the other and want to be able to see out. This sounded reasonable. You can spend as much as you want on a stroller. Evaluate what you'll use it for. I knew I would use mine either for a walk on a track, the mall, the zoo, or running errands. I would not be jogging with it, so I knew I could buy something cheaper and not as awesome. Plus, I live on a gravel road off of a state highway, so I knew I wouldn't be strolling regularly. I went with the Jeep double umbrella stroller, got it at stroller.com for $70 in May with free shipping. The sunshades are a joke, but I have been pleased with the stroller for the price.
Jeep Wrangler Twin Sport Umbrella Stroller (photo courtesy of stroller.com)
3. Nutrition is the MOST important component of managing a twin pregnancy. This book was amazing, and I attribute my healthy outcomes both to God and to following the high protein diet in this book.
When You're Expecting Twins, Triplets, or Quads: Proven Guidelines for a Healthy Multiple Pregnancy
4. Schedule help. Dave was able to be home with us for two weeks. 50% of twins are born by c-section, so having help is even more imperative. Regardless of how you birth your twins, you MUST rest for a month afterwards if at all possible. My midwife, who provided me with nutrition and breastfeeding advice, said I needed to sleep as much as possible for the first month--no housework--just sleep, eat, and nurse the babies. I have three older children under the age of 6. I did not know how this was going to work, especially after Dave went back to work. So, I made a calendar and divided the days he wouldn't be here into two sections: 8am-12pm and 1pm-5pm. People would mention in passing, "I'd love to help you when the babies come" or "Just let me know how I can help." So, I made sure that I got all their names written down along with their phone numbers, emails, and times they were available to help. Then, each week, I would contact people to fill in those time slots. Making them 4 hr time slots seemed more doable and less overwhelming for people, and praise God, I only ever had to be alone with all 5 children TWICE in that first month. I didn't have a full day alone with all of them until the beginning of February. I got plenty of rest. They watched the older children, made them lunch, fed them snacks, helped pick up around the house, made me lunch, helped me change and burp the twins. It was amazing. I would not have made it without my team of helpers that first month! Don't be afraid to ask for help. You cannot and should not try to do this alone. It will keep you from getting depressed and overwhelmed.
5. Freeze meals. I had two weeks of meals that were brought to my home by friends and church members. But, I knew that eventually, the meals would stop. So, about a month before the babies were due, my friend, Tina, came over and helped me put a bunch of meals in the freezer. For two weeks, I bought two of everything and made double of every meal and froze half. By the time the twins came, I had 17 meals in my freezer. I have a LARGE freezer, but I also have a small deep freeze. You can get a small deep freeze for about $150. It's worth it.
6. If you can afford it, hire a housekeeper. I hired Miss Emelyn about a month before the twins came. She and her sister or her niece come every other week. She does anything I need her to do--dishes, laundry, all cleaning, help with the kids or the babies. They are amazing. I would not make it without them. I recently had to clean my house (all the way) by myself while they were on vacation. I survived it, but I was super overwhelmed by all that I had to do. I knew that hiring her was cheaper than therapy! I also love having her around; she is a blessing to our family.
7. And, if you can do this, it will make everything better--keep your twins on the same feeding and napping schedule. Ours is not hard core or strict, by any means, but they ALWAYS eat at the same time, and I lay them down for naps at the same time. This has given me the time I need to rest and recharge and to homeschool my older two children. This was by far one of the best decisions I have made.
I hope you find all of this helpful, and if you have any other questions, please don't hesitate to ask. Your twins will bless you more than you even know!!!
1. If you're breastfeeding, get this nursing pillow. It is great. Once I had them latched on, I was hands-free! It's awesome. It is generous in size, and I have used it from the time I got home with the boys. Now, my boys were term and Felix weighed 6 lbs 12 oz, and Milo weighed 7 lbs 5 oz, so they were not teeny tiny preemies. This may not work for you until they get bigger if yours end up coming early. But I love it, and STILL use it and my boys are 9 months old.
Double Blessings Twin Nursing Pillow (stock photo from doubleblessings.com)
2. I wanted a lightweight, inexpensive double stroller. Another twin parent recommended a side by side as one twin may not like being behind the other and want to be able to see out. This sounded reasonable. You can spend as much as you want on a stroller. Evaluate what you'll use it for. I knew I would use mine either for a walk on a track, the mall, the zoo, or running errands. I would not be jogging with it, so I knew I could buy something cheaper and not as awesome. Plus, I live on a gravel road off of a state highway, so I knew I wouldn't be strolling regularly. I went with the Jeep double umbrella stroller, got it at stroller.com for $70 in May with free shipping. The sunshades are a joke, but I have been pleased with the stroller for the price.
Jeep Wrangler Twin Sport Umbrella Stroller (photo courtesy of stroller.com)
3. Nutrition is the MOST important component of managing a twin pregnancy. This book was amazing, and I attribute my healthy outcomes both to God and to following the high protein diet in this book.
When You're Expecting Twins, Triplets, or Quads: Proven Guidelines for a Healthy Multiple Pregnancy
4. Schedule help. Dave was able to be home with us for two weeks. 50% of twins are born by c-section, so having help is even more imperative. Regardless of how you birth your twins, you MUST rest for a month afterwards if at all possible. My midwife, who provided me with nutrition and breastfeeding advice, said I needed to sleep as much as possible for the first month--no housework--just sleep, eat, and nurse the babies. I have three older children under the age of 6. I did not know how this was going to work, especially after Dave went back to work. So, I made a calendar and divided the days he wouldn't be here into two sections: 8am-12pm and 1pm-5pm. People would mention in passing, "I'd love to help you when the babies come" or "Just let me know how I can help." So, I made sure that I got all their names written down along with their phone numbers, emails, and times they were available to help. Then, each week, I would contact people to fill in those time slots. Making them 4 hr time slots seemed more doable and less overwhelming for people, and praise God, I only ever had to be alone with all 5 children TWICE in that first month. I didn't have a full day alone with all of them until the beginning of February. I got plenty of rest. They watched the older children, made them lunch, fed them snacks, helped pick up around the house, made me lunch, helped me change and burp the twins. It was amazing. I would not have made it without my team of helpers that first month! Don't be afraid to ask for help. You cannot and should not try to do this alone. It will keep you from getting depressed and overwhelmed.
5. Freeze meals. I had two weeks of meals that were brought to my home by friends and church members. But, I knew that eventually, the meals would stop. So, about a month before the babies were due, my friend, Tina, came over and helped me put a bunch of meals in the freezer. For two weeks, I bought two of everything and made double of every meal and froze half. By the time the twins came, I had 17 meals in my freezer. I have a LARGE freezer, but I also have a small deep freeze. You can get a small deep freeze for about $150. It's worth it.
6. If you can afford it, hire a housekeeper. I hired Miss Emelyn about a month before the twins came. She and her sister or her niece come every other week. She does anything I need her to do--dishes, laundry, all cleaning, help with the kids or the babies. They are amazing. I would not make it without them. I recently had to clean my house (all the way) by myself while they were on vacation. I survived it, but I was super overwhelmed by all that I had to do. I knew that hiring her was cheaper than therapy! I also love having her around; she is a blessing to our family.
7. And, if you can do this, it will make everything better--keep your twins on the same feeding and napping schedule. Ours is not hard core or strict, by any means, but they ALWAYS eat at the same time, and I lay them down for naps at the same time. This has given me the time I need to rest and recharge and to homeschool my older two children. This was by far one of the best decisions I have made.
I hope you find all of this helpful, and if you have any other questions, please don't hesitate to ask. Your twins will bless you more than you even know!!!
Saturday, August 6, 2011
So Much to Say
I have not blogged in weeks. I keep thinking about it, but the time and opportunity just hasn't come up. I've spent much of my free time reading The Hunger Games trilogy, which was fantastic. I thoroughly enjoyed the series.
I planned out the first six weeks of school for my kiddos. That was hard, but I'm glad I got it taken care of. We started school last Monday, and the kids are doing so great. I will blog about what we're doing homeschool-wise later.
Dave and I have been using one car since May. We didn't intend for that to happen, but it has, and we're doing fine with it. We went out one day and looked at trucks, thinking we might get one for Dave and just trade in our old Acura. But, I didn't have peace about it, and it all felt very rushed, so we stepped back. We are getting VERY close to paying off the last 1/5 of our student loan debt. We just didn't want to lose any momentum by adding car debt to the pile. We decided to fix the Acura. So, since May, we have been waiting for a good, used engine to present itself so the mechanic can use parts from it to fix the car. Evidently, they're not getting many leads. And we wait.
I don't really have anywhere to go anyway, so it hasn't been a big deal. But, people think we're crazy. And that's okay. We're getting closer and closer to our goal.
My twins are 7 months old and getting more and more mobile. Milo is crawling, sitting up occasionally, and pulling up on things. He is my earliest mobile child. Felix is army-crawling and rocking on his hands and knees. He has FOUR teeth and two more trying to break through.
Sam and Maryn are so stinking smart. They're crazy good readers and constantly wowing me. They've been pretty busy making things and playing pretty hard.
Lucy is less destructive these days. She still occasionally puts things in the toilet, but not nearly as much. She hasn't colored on the walls in a couple of months. Progress!!! I see pottytraining in our future, and I am already ready for it to be over! :) She's getting closer to being really ready. Her speech is improving all the time, and we're starting to communicate better. She still has melt-downs when I don't understand her, but they are fewer.
Lucy has also taken a liking to grand-daddy longlegs. Here's one of her buddies:
There is another beautiful garden spider at our house this year. This one is out by the deck so I don't get to see her as much as I did the one by the window last year. I think she is amazing. I don't want to touch her, but I enjoy watching her.
My dear househelp is on vacation in the Philippines. She will be back at the end of the month. Thankfully, my friend, Nicole, was able to come help this week. Last week, I cleaned everything except the hardwoods (I swept but didn't mop). It was nice to know I could do it, but made me thankful that I don't have to try to do it all regularly.
I am exhausted these days. I am ready to figure out a way to get more breaks so I can breathe and be refreshed. Feel free to pray for this in my life. God knows what I need, and I think He will provide even this.
So, this is my update. I wish I could keep up better, but I haven't been able to. I hope to be able to blog about homeschooling very soon. I am LOVING what we are doing this year, and I look forward to sharing that with you.
I planned out the first six weeks of school for my kiddos. That was hard, but I'm glad I got it taken care of. We started school last Monday, and the kids are doing so great. I will blog about what we're doing homeschool-wise later.
Dave and I have been using one car since May. We didn't intend for that to happen, but it has, and we're doing fine with it. We went out one day and looked at trucks, thinking we might get one for Dave and just trade in our old Acura. But, I didn't have peace about it, and it all felt very rushed, so we stepped back. We are getting VERY close to paying off the last 1/5 of our student loan debt. We just didn't want to lose any momentum by adding car debt to the pile. We decided to fix the Acura. So, since May, we have been waiting for a good, used engine to present itself so the mechanic can use parts from it to fix the car. Evidently, they're not getting many leads. And we wait.
I don't really have anywhere to go anyway, so it hasn't been a big deal. But, people think we're crazy. And that's okay. We're getting closer and closer to our goal.
My twins are 7 months old and getting more and more mobile. Milo is crawling, sitting up occasionally, and pulling up on things. He is my earliest mobile child. Felix is army-crawling and rocking on his hands and knees. He has FOUR teeth and two more trying to break through.
Sam and Maryn are so stinking smart. They're crazy good readers and constantly wowing me. They've been pretty busy making things and playing pretty hard.
Lucy is less destructive these days. She still occasionally puts things in the toilet, but not nearly as much. She hasn't colored on the walls in a couple of months. Progress!!! I see pottytraining in our future, and I am already ready for it to be over! :) She's getting closer to being really ready. Her speech is improving all the time, and we're starting to communicate better. She still has melt-downs when I don't understand her, but they are fewer.
Lucy has also taken a liking to grand-daddy longlegs. Here's one of her buddies:
There is another beautiful garden spider at our house this year. This one is out by the deck so I don't get to see her as much as I did the one by the window last year. I think she is amazing. I don't want to touch her, but I enjoy watching her.
My dear househelp is on vacation in the Philippines. She will be back at the end of the month. Thankfully, my friend, Nicole, was able to come help this week. Last week, I cleaned everything except the hardwoods (I swept but didn't mop). It was nice to know I could do it, but made me thankful that I don't have to try to do it all regularly.
I am exhausted these days. I am ready to figure out a way to get more breaks so I can breathe and be refreshed. Feel free to pray for this in my life. God knows what I need, and I think He will provide even this.
So, this is my update. I wish I could keep up better, but I haven't been able to. I hope to be able to blog about homeschooling very soon. I am LOVING what we are doing this year, and I look forward to sharing that with you.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
The Books Are Back
Since having the twins, I haven't been able to read nearly like I normally do. I have always loved to read, and when I am sleep-deprived and going non-stop, I just don't have the time.
And when I'm nursing twins (mostly early on), I had a hard time concentrating on much...and the Facebook app on my phone kept me entertained, and I didn't have to think.
That has all recently changed. Thank the Lord. I have missed reading. I have completed two books this week and started another.
1. I started reading this back in March. It took me awhile since I have still been in "baby fog" land. I just finished it, and I LOVED IT. I can't even put into words how fantastic this book is.
Buy one. Buy some more for your friends. Read her blog. Be blessed, and be a blessing.
This book has helped me to really SEE. To SEARCH. To BE THANKFUL. To BE A BLESSING.
2. I am in a discipleship group in our church. Our pastor leads the group, and he asked us to read this next book. It's pretty popular right now, though I don't know why--its topic is not a popular one. I'm just going to trust the Holy Spirit is moving and using this little book.
The ideas and concepts in this book (discipleship, multiplication, wartime lifestyle, Great Commission) were not new to me. In fact, I had three years of training in these ideas back in college. I've lived as a mobilizer in the past, we regularly give to missionaries and have committed to long-term service overseas, we support a child with Compassion (that's her in the photo--Umutesi). But, for the million things I'm NOT doing, this book was a GREAT reminder. I didn't feel guilty when reading it, instead, my zeal for giving my life to the Great Commission was renewed. I feel recharged and encouraged to press on. There are companion materials online as well.
3. The book I am now reading is to help prepare me for homeschooling. I homeschooled Samuel last year, and we were successful. He learned what he needed to, he blew me away with his brilliance, and unfortunately, we fought a lot. This year, I will be homeschooling TWO kids. Maryn will be in kindergarten, and Sam will move on to first grade. And then there is busy 2-year-old Lucy and the baby twins. I turned to my friend, Annette (who is a missionary is East Asia with 6 children that she homeschools), and said, "I want your advice." THIS is the book she told me to read first.
Thank you, Melissa and Laurel, for your suggestions. I can't wait to spend more time on these sites.
Finally, I have another Charlotte Mason book (the Companion, actually) that I am going to read/peruse (cuz it's so big!!!). And for fun, I am going to start with the first of the popular, new trilogy, The Hunger Games.
Happy Summer Reading!
And when I'm nursing twins (mostly early on), I had a hard time concentrating on much...and the Facebook app on my phone kept me entertained, and I didn't have to think.
That has all recently changed. Thank the Lord. I have missed reading. I have completed two books this week and started another.
1. I started reading this back in March. It took me awhile since I have still been in "baby fog" land. I just finished it, and I LOVED IT. I can't even put into words how fantastic this book is.
Buy one. Buy some more for your friends. Read her blog. Be blessed, and be a blessing.
by Ann Voskamp
This book has helped me to really SEE. To SEARCH. To BE THANKFUL. To BE A BLESSING.
To realize HE IS GOOD.
2. I am in a discipleship group in our church. Our pastor leads the group, and he asked us to read this next book. It's pretty popular right now, though I don't know why--its topic is not a popular one. I'm just going to trust the Holy Spirit is moving and using this little book.
by David Platt
3. The book I am now reading is to help prepare me for homeschooling. I homeschooled Samuel last year, and we were successful. He learned what he needed to, he blew me away with his brilliance, and unfortunately, we fought a lot. This year, I will be homeschooling TWO kids. Maryn will be in kindergarten, and Sam will move on to first grade. And then there is busy 2-year-old Lucy and the baby twins. I turned to my friend, Annette (who is a missionary is East Asia with 6 children that she homeschools), and said, "I want your advice." THIS is the book she told me to read first.
by Susan Schaeffer Macauley
I had been curious about Charlotte Mason, the woman whose ideas this book is patterned after. She was a teacher/philosopher in the late 19th century. I had read bits about her and how she viewed children as persons, not merely as containers to be filled with information. I am excited to see what I learn from this book. So far, I am enjoying it, and it is helping me to look at my children differently--each as unique creations by God with their own ideas and personalities. I think when it comes to school, it is easy to lump them all together and do the same thing for each. The beauty of homeschooling is being able to play to your child's strengths and to meet them on their level--to listen to them and learn from them as well.
I've been informed about a couple of online communities that espouse the Charlotte Mason philosophies:
Finally, I have another Charlotte Mason book (the Companion, actually) that I am going to read/peruse (cuz it's so big!!!). And for fun, I am going to start with the first of the popular, new trilogy, The Hunger Games.
Happy Summer Reading!
Thursday, June 30, 2011
The Baby Weight
I have a new theory. Before I share, let me clarify a few of my beliefs.
1. I think childbirth is a picture of Christ on the cross--the agony, the pain, the laboring, and then the new birth--I bring forth a baby; He brought forth the Church.
2. I think women stress too much about losing baby weight (self included).
3. I don't believe there is a certain time frame in which you must lose it (Ignore that "9 months to gain, 9 months to lose" lie.).
So, my theory?
I think a pregnant body and a postpartum body is beautiful. Even though I sometimes struggle with the way I look now (usually a result of comparing myself to others), I do truly think it is a beautiful thing. Why?
In the same way that Jesus' body was battered, bruised, torn, tattered, bleeding, gushing water, heart exploding, so does mine.
Now, I know you may be thinking that I'm crazy to compare the pains of pregnancy and childbirth to a crucifixion, and I get that--just hear me out--I, in no way, think I have EVER physically suffered even close to what my Savior endured on that cross. But look at the similarities:
1. He had stripes on his back from being whipped (cannot fathom that kind of pain).
I have stretch marks.
2. His body was torn by the cat of nine tails.
Mine was torn by babies.
3. He had blood pouring out of his body.
I did too.
4. When he died, they stabbed him with a spear, and blood and water gushed out.
When my bags of water broke, the water gushed out.
5. He labored to breathe.
I labored with measured, meted breaths.
6. His heart finally exploded.
Mine exploded in JOY.
Now, I realize I may be reaching with this one, but I thought of it the other day after I'd been asked if I was pregnant with #6 (and I'm SO NOT)...which doesn't HURT my feelings, really, because I know my abs LOOK pregnant. And this has happened to me many times because twins just destroy the abdominal muscles. But, I was mourning my pre-baby body, my pre-TWINS body, and then this thought occurred to me:
After Jesus arose, even His glorified body still had scars. Why?
As proof? For Thomas? For me?
So, when I stand in front of the mirror and see my twin-skin, the stretch marks, and the separated ab muscles that could only EVER be repaired with surgery, I am going to remind myself of what I accomplished--
I brought forth NEW LIFE.
And so did He. And for that, I am ever grateful.
1. I think childbirth is a picture of Christ on the cross--the agony, the pain, the laboring, and then the new birth--I bring forth a baby; He brought forth the Church.
2. I think women stress too much about losing baby weight (self included).
3. I don't believe there is a certain time frame in which you must lose it (Ignore that "9 months to gain, 9 months to lose" lie.).
So, my theory?
I think a pregnant body and a postpartum body is beautiful. Even though I sometimes struggle with the way I look now (usually a result of comparing myself to others), I do truly think it is a beautiful thing. Why?
In the same way that Jesus' body was battered, bruised, torn, tattered, bleeding, gushing water, heart exploding, so does mine.
Now, I know you may be thinking that I'm crazy to compare the pains of pregnancy and childbirth to a crucifixion, and I get that--just hear me out--I, in no way, think I have EVER physically suffered even close to what my Savior endured on that cross. But look at the similarities:
1. He had stripes on his back from being whipped (cannot fathom that kind of pain).
I have stretch marks.
2. His body was torn by the cat of nine tails.
Mine was torn by babies.
3. He had blood pouring out of his body.
I did too.
4. When he died, they stabbed him with a spear, and blood and water gushed out.
When my bags of water broke, the water gushed out.
5. He labored to breathe.
I labored with measured, meted breaths.
6. His heart finally exploded.
Mine exploded in JOY.
Now, I realize I may be reaching with this one, but I thought of it the other day after I'd been asked if I was pregnant with #6 (and I'm SO NOT)...which doesn't HURT my feelings, really, because I know my abs LOOK pregnant. And this has happened to me many times because twins just destroy the abdominal muscles. But, I was mourning my pre-baby body, my pre-TWINS body, and then this thought occurred to me:
After Jesus arose, even His glorified body still had scars. Why?
As proof? For Thomas? For me?
So, when I stand in front of the mirror and see my twin-skin, the stretch marks, and the separated ab muscles that could only EVER be repaired with surgery, I am going to remind myself of what I accomplished--
I brought forth NEW LIFE.
And so did He. And for that, I am ever grateful.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
New Things
1. Felix is getting his first tooth. It broke through the other day. Milo is still toothless.
2. Milo started pushing up on his hands and knees.
3. Felix jabbers all the time. Milo just started trying out his voice.
Not the same, folks! It's neat to see how their personalities assist them in their development.
1. Lucy had a 103+ fever for four days. I am glad it went away.
2. Sam has poison ivy (or something). It's EVERYWHERE.
3. Maryn and I are getting our hair cut on Saturday. I'm going back to my pixie ways. These locks are driving me crazy.
In other news:
1. I really, really like The Vespers.
2. I also really like Ray LaMontagne (I realize I'm a bit slow to hop on this boat...but I had twins, so give me a break.)
3. Dave and I are still working on our movie project blog. We are getting more accomplished since it is summer and our shows aren't on. I will be posting about Dr. Zhivago soon. Next up is In the Heat of the Night.
4. I finally got some important things mailed. It makes me feel better to get them out of the house.
5. Working on a sweater for my friend, Manda. It's actually for her baby girl, Charlie, who needs to hurry up and get here so we can see how cute she is.
6. I found some new cotton yarn colors to add to my granny square afghan that I'm patterning after this lovely one.
That is all. Sorry to be brief and shallow. :) My thoughts are quite unorganized these days, and my opportunities to blog are few--so this is what you get today!!! Thanks to those who read--I am shocked you still do--I hope to someday be interesting again!
2. Milo started pushing up on his hands and knees.
And does some push-ups that I will never be able to do.
Felix still won't roll from back to belly, but he loves his feet.
3. Felix jabbers all the time. Milo just started trying out his voice.
Not the same, folks! It's neat to see how their personalities assist them in their development.
1. Lucy had a 103+ fever for four days. I am glad it went away.
2. Sam has poison ivy (or something). It's EVERYWHERE.
3. Maryn and I are getting our hair cut on Saturday. I'm going back to my pixie ways. These locks are driving me crazy.
In other news:
1. I really, really like The Vespers.
2. I also really like Ray LaMontagne (I realize I'm a bit slow to hop on this boat...but I had twins, so give me a break.)
3. Dave and I are still working on our movie project blog. We are getting more accomplished since it is summer and our shows aren't on. I will be posting about Dr. Zhivago soon. Next up is In the Heat of the Night.
4. I finally got some important things mailed. It makes me feel better to get them out of the house.
5. Working on a sweater for my friend, Manda. It's actually for her baby girl, Charlie, who needs to hurry up and get here so we can see how cute she is.
6. I found some new cotton yarn colors to add to my granny square afghan that I'm patterning after this lovely one.
That is all. Sorry to be brief and shallow. :) My thoughts are quite unorganized these days, and my opportunities to blog are few--so this is what you get today!!! Thanks to those who read--I am shocked you still do--I hope to someday be interesting again!
Thursday, May 12, 2011
My "Quiet" Life
We have been busy. I don't like it. I don't like to be going all the time. We have resolved to be still after this weekend. We are going to celebrate Maryn's 5th birthday with our families, and THEN, we will sit still until the end of June.
Maryn turned five on Tuesday of this week. I can't believe it. She is 5. Wow. Time flies when you have a lot of kids! It flies and flies and flies, and I wish sometimes it would slow down. I have tried to make it slow down--spend more time reading with them, playing with them, and cooking with them. Maryn has fewer meltdowns now than she did even a year ago. She is maturing. She is so smart and sweet and nurturing. She loves to color and draw and ride her bike.
We bought her a Hello Kitty! backpack for her birthday. She was thrilled (even though it wasn't a "square backpack with Hello Kitty! on it" but rather a stuffed Hello Kitty! with a zipper for hiding things).
She also loved her strawberry cake with strawberry frosting and a Hello Kitty! on it (even though I forgot the strawberries AROUND Hello Kitty!). She is a details-girl. :)
Lucy is my shadow. If I don't keep her nearby, I can just about guarantee that something will have crayon on it, and if not that, then something will be wet or sticky. She is a messy girl. But, she is funny. And cute. And easy to laugh at. And her grin melts my frustration most of the time.
She is a mile-a-minute-joy-frenzy. I will gladly repaint the interior of this house to enjoy her more--and scold less. Don't get me wrong--she gets her fair share of time-outs and scoldings. I just forget sometimes that she is TWO and not FIVE or SIX. Two year olds are messy. (Must repeat as often as necessary!)
Sam's last day of school is tomorrow! I am so glad! We will keep reading, of course, but we will say farewell to math and structured handwriting until August. I can't believe it--I did it. I taught my son for a whole school year. And he is doing well. SO well. I do not regret keeping him home. He is so imaginative, creative, brilliant, and fun. I have half a mind to get rid of all his toys because he is constantly making toys out of paper and tape. He doesn't need toys!
Sam has struggled with fear (in many arenas) since he was nearly three. We are working on it, but when it rears its ugly head, it isn't so easy to defeat. One day, he was scared of bugs--out of the blue. The next day, he's fine. I looked out the window yesterday and saw all three kids chasing toads that had gotten on the deck. I think there were about four of them hopping all over. I had to grab my camera. No fear of toads!
Felix and Milo are laughing and "talking" to us all the time, now. It's so fun. They are so cute. Their naps are haphazard lately, and that is challenging for me. I just make do and walk away when I get frustrated. They really are amazing babies, though. I couldn't have asked for better babes. They are forever making a fool out of me as I repeatedly do whatever will make them laugh or smile.
I am so blessed.
Monday, March 7, 2011
Life Goes On
It's March, and I can hardly believe it. My babies are 10 weeks old today. The last couple of nights they have gone 5.5 hours between feedings. That translates into me getting about 4.5 hours of sleep at once. I have more of a routine these days. If I didn't have a schedule, nothing would happen around here. I'll share it with you though it may bore you to tears.
6:30-7 Wake up and feed the babies (usually).
7-8 Nursing, Burping, Diaper Changing
8 Lay the babies down for naps
8-8:30 Get ready for the day and eat breakfast
8:30-9 Clean up the kitchen and dining room, empty and load the dishwasher, start a load of laundry
9-10 Homeschool
10-11 Nursing, Burping, Diaper Changing
11 Lay the babies down for naps
11-12 Move laundry to dryer, do meal prep for dinner, prepare lunch
12-12:30 Lunch
12:30 Clean up after lunch and get Lucy ready for nap
1--Lay Lucy down for a nap and put her back in bed numerous times
1-2 Nursing, Burping, Diaper Changing
2-4 Somedays I nap, others I crochet or get online, or I watch BBC movies on Netflix (closest thing to "me" time I have)
3--Give kids snacks
4-5 Nursing, Burping, Diaper Changing
5-6 Do whatever needs to be done to ensure dinner is ready by 6.
6-6:30 Dinner
6:30-7 Clean up after dinner
7 Nursing, Burping, Diaper Changing
7-8 Occasional baths, Dave gets the big kids ready for bed and plays.
8-8:30 Showers for me and Dave
8:30-10 We watch TV or Arrested Development on Netflix (or whatever movie we're watching for our project)
10 Nursing, Burping Diaper Changing
3-4 Nursing, Burping Diaper Changing
And it goes on and on. This is my life. Thankfully, I don't mind it; it keeps me sane. It's not easy caring for three kids and newborn twins, but it CAN be done!
So, if you wonder how I do it all, there's my schedule. I don't clean my house (I hired a VERY reasonably priced housekeeper who comes every other week, and I recently had a friend who is helping on the off week so that it doesn't get too out of hand). I'm so thankful I am able to do this. If I wasn't able, I am sure Dave and I would just bust our tails on the weekends.
Life goes on. People say, "I don't know how you do it." It's just like any other difficult thing in life--you just DO IT. We do it because we love these kids--if you don't do it, that's called neglect!!! You just do what you have to do. It could be a lot harder, and I am thankful for how smooth it has been so far. And so you know, you don't have to do it like somebody else--you have got to find your own rhythm. This is what works for us right now.
Ask me in a couple of months, and I'm sure even this will have changed.
We're surviving. And perhaps it is premature, but I think thriving is around the corner.
6:30-7 Wake up and feed the babies (usually).
7-8 Nursing, Burping, Diaper Changing
8 Lay the babies down for naps
8-8:30 Get ready for the day and eat breakfast
8:30-9 Clean up the kitchen and dining room, empty and load the dishwasher, start a load of laundry
9-10 Homeschool
10-11 Nursing, Burping, Diaper Changing
11 Lay the babies down for naps
11-12 Move laundry to dryer, do meal prep for dinner, prepare lunch
12-12:30 Lunch
12:30 Clean up after lunch and get Lucy ready for nap
1--Lay Lucy down for a nap and put her back in bed numerous times
1-2 Nursing, Burping, Diaper Changing
2-4 Somedays I nap, others I crochet or get online, or I watch BBC movies on Netflix (closest thing to "me" time I have)
3--Give kids snacks
4-5 Nursing, Burping, Diaper Changing
5-6 Do whatever needs to be done to ensure dinner is ready by 6.
6-6:30 Dinner
6:30-7 Clean up after dinner
7 Nursing, Burping, Diaper Changing
7-8 Occasional baths, Dave gets the big kids ready for bed and plays.
8-8:30 Showers for me and Dave
8:30-10 We watch TV or Arrested Development on Netflix (or whatever movie we're watching for our project)
10 Nursing, Burping Diaper Changing
3-4 Nursing, Burping Diaper Changing
And it goes on and on. This is my life. Thankfully, I don't mind it; it keeps me sane. It's not easy caring for three kids and newborn twins, but it CAN be done!
So, if you wonder how I do it all, there's my schedule. I don't clean my house (I hired a VERY reasonably priced housekeeper who comes every other week, and I recently had a friend who is helping on the off week so that it doesn't get too out of hand). I'm so thankful I am able to do this. If I wasn't able, I am sure Dave and I would just bust our tails on the weekends.
Life goes on. People say, "I don't know how you do it." It's just like any other difficult thing in life--you just DO IT. We do it because we love these kids--if you don't do it, that's called neglect!!! You just do what you have to do. It could be a lot harder, and I am thankful for how smooth it has been so far. And so you know, you don't have to do it like somebody else--you have got to find your own rhythm. This is what works for us right now.
Ask me in a couple of months, and I'm sure even this will have changed.
We're surviving. And perhaps it is premature, but I think thriving is around the corner.
Monday, February 14, 2011
My Wee Valentines
My heart is full. I never dreamed I would be able to love so many people with so much intensity. They are all so unique and require such different kinds of love. I never tire of their smiles. I am never exasperated by their giggles. Some people are glad not to be me because I have five children, two of them twins. I'm glad they're not me, too. I wouldn't trade this for anything.
Milo has the sweetest spirit. I can't even describe it. I just feel so much sweetness oozing from him when I'm with him. He is mellow and generally content. I have a feeling he is going to be a perfect balance for Felix--strong and supportive and loving. I love his sweet snuggles.
I can't imagine my life without my strong and hilarious, Samuel. He brings us so much joy and laughter. His wit and wisdom are evident at an early age. He has a strong sense of justice, and he is the best big brother. He has taught me so much about grace and forgiveness.
Maryn is the child who helped me become a mother--one who knows her baby, one who listens, one who meets her child's needs without trying to fit her into a box. To this day, I cannot put Maryn in a box. She's my sweet, loving, and passionate child.
Sam and Maryn's relationship is so great. Yes, they fight, but they are the best of friends. I can't wait to see them grow older together and watch the bond deepen.
Lucy is our joy-bringer. She brings light and life to our family. She is a constant reminder of God's redemption to me. This little one is going to do mighty things for Him.
Felix means "happy," but so far, he has been pretty fussy. This can only mean one thing--he is an overcomer--a victorious conqueror! I have no doubt he will live up to his name. He is seriously precious, and he makes some of the funniest faces. I have no doubt he will fill our home with strength and laughter. His shifty eyes are my favorite.
And I don't want to miss any of it.
Friday, January 21, 2011
And Then There Were Two: Our Twin Birth Story
We made it through Christmas without me going into labor. I was so thankful. I didn't want to miss celebrating Christmas with my older children, and I most certainly did not want to miss celebrating Sam's 6th birthday that evening.
Sunday came, and all was fine. That afternoon, the contractions began. They were irregular but painful. I talked to my midwife, and she suggested a glass of wine to calm my uterus. I had half a glass, and they calmed briefly. I tried to rest just in case this was the real thing. The contractions continued all night, and I barely slept. They were not getting any more regular, but they were still painful, and my back was killing me. I would just about doze off, and then another would come, and I would time it, only to be disappointed that it was not regular.
I had made it to 37 weeks and 4 days. With twins, it is recommended that you make it to at least 37 weeks for their safety. I was nervous about going into labor, though, because we live 75 minutes from the hospital and the babies had not been in the right positions at the last ultrasound. My last labor with Lucy was about 4.5 hours, and it would be dangerous for me to go into labor with the babies in the transverse position (sideways).
I had an appointment that Monday morning anyway, so Dave loaded up the van with all our stuff--just in case--and we headed to Little Rock. My doctor's partner saw me (my doctor was on vacation), and she said I had progressed a little, but not much. She sent us to the hospital for observation.
I really hoped that they would do an ultrasound and discover that Felix was head down. I really wanted to hear that--if not, I had a c-section scheduled for Thursday. I desperately wanted to avoid it. Once I had experienced a natural birth with Lucy, nothing else would satisfy.
Dave wheeled me into labor and delivery, and I heard a mother screaming in pain as she labored. I was excited to hear someone delivering without drugs. A nurse at the counter said, "Don't mind the squealing." I was disgusted at her word choice and her obvious disdain for the patient. Another nurse chimed in, "Yeah, that's what you get when you don't have an epidural!"
"I think she's doing a GREAT job," said I, unable to even look the nurse in the eye because I was so irritated. How unprofessional!!!
Well, the unprofessional nurse turned out to be MY nurse. Ugh. I was a bit snippy with her and not very warm or engaging. I did NOT want to have my babies here!!! I did not want unsupportive staff! She hooked me up to the monitors and everything, and I was still contracting. My back was miserable. She began asking the pile of questions. I answered them. She then asked, "If you will be having a vaginal delivery, will you be having an epidural?"
"No," I replied.
"Have you ever had an epidural before?" she went on.
"Yes, with my first two children," I responded.
"Oh, so you went natural with the third?" she pried.
"Yes, I did."
I think now she may have had a clue as to why I didn't agree with their comments back at the nurse's station. She finally left us alone.
My friend, Marla, was in town for Christmas, and she wrote on my facebook, "You better have those babies while I'm in town so I can come see them!" I didn't even know she was around! I called her and told her what was up. She came up to the hospital and hung out with us while we were waiting around. I had no idea what kind of blessing she was going to be for me that day.
My doctor came in to check on us, and he decided to go ahead and do an ultrasound.
Both boys were BREECH. BOTH.
My heart sank.
This meant one thing only--a c-section.
Then, the doctor asked us what we wanted to do--have one today or wait the three days for the scheduled one? After all, the chances of Felix turning at all at this point were slim to none. I hem-hawed for a minute because I just couldn't say it. I looked at Dave and asked, "What do you think?" Neither of us wanted to say it.
Finally, I said it, "I guess we'll do it today."
After all, our kids were already being cared for, we were in Little Rock, I was approaching labor though I wasn't technically in labor. Labor with breech twins over an hour from the hospital was not a favorable scenario. We would just be turning around to do it in three days anyway.
It was the right thing to do in our situation.
But I still hated it.
And I was scared.
But, God had prepared a plan--a GOOD plan--in advance.
My midwife had flown to California to be with her daughter for a few days, and she planned to return in time for my scheduled c-section. Even though I wasn't having a vaginal delivery, I wanted her to be there so that I would have support while having surgery. She would stay with me while Dave was with the babies. But, since we had decided to go ahead with the early section, she would not be able to be present.
But Marla could be!
I asked her if she would stay for the surgery. She was ecstatic, and she said that she would. I encourage you to read Marla's story sometime, but suffice it to say, she was the BEST person I could have with me (next to my husband, of course!!!) during the surgery.
We were scheduled to have the surgery at 4:30pm. Around 4, Dave and Marla suited up for surgery, and I started to freak out. My mind was a playground for fear. It was overwhelming. I was so nervous about the surgery. I started feeling claustrophobic and anxious. I couldn't be still. Finally, close to 6pm, they came to get me. I had mentioned to Dave that we could just leave. We didn't HAVE to stay!
I got prepped for the surgery, and I felt like I had been abducted by aliens. I'll spare you the gory details, but I will say that lying on a table for the world to see with bright lights above and a bunch of masked people around staring at you is definitely otherworldly and added to my fear and anxiety.
They had to keep giving me more medicine in the epidural because I still had some "hot spots" on my belly where I had sensation. That was a little unsettling! Because they upped my dosage so much, I began shaking uncontrollably, just as I had with my epidurals with Sam and Maryn (which was the first of many reasons I had a natural birth with Lucy). They tried to blame it on the fact that I was giving birth, but I knew better. I didn't have that awful full body shaking with Lucy. They tried counter-acting it with Demerol. I would get temporary relief, but then it would start up again. One anesthesiologist was super sweet and reassuring. I appreciated him.
The boys came out crying and healthy. I don't remember many details, but they did show me the babies. Thankfully, there are pictures that Marla and Dave took so I have proof! Dave said I seemed really subdued and not quite myself while I was in there. I kept remembering a story someone told me about a surgery they had, and unfortunately, his anesthesia didn't work. An angel (he supposes) appeared to him and said, "The kingdom of heaven lies within; go within!" I kept repeating the phrase in my mind, over and over, and just hid myself in the secret place with Jesus. I was so scared, but thinking about Him being with me calmed me.
Felix and Me
Milo and Me
Marla cried out, "NICU is leaving!" I felt relief wash over me to know my babies were healthy. Felix's APGAR was 8/9 and Milo's was 9/9. I was so thankful.
Felix and Milo
Marla stayed right next to me, distracting me while I was being sewn up. Dave stayed with the babies. I was most brokenhearted about not getting to hold my babies right away, next to my skin. But the next best thing was that their daddy was right there with them.
Before I knew it, everything was done, and they moved me to a bed to wheel me back to my recovery room. Evidently, I held the babies as I was wheeled back.
The next couple of hours is a blur. Marla says I kept telling the anesthesiologist that "I loved my natural birth," over and over. That makes me laugh! I don't remember it at all.
I did get to nurse the boys--at the same time, and it was beautiful. They were so alert, and from the start until now, they have been nursing non-stop! They were not sleepy like my other babies had been, only eating once or twice the first day--nope, they ate every 2 hours (or less than 2!).
I was glad when the fog began to clear for me, and I could enjoy my boys. Dave has been my true partner. I never have to wonder if he's going to help me with breastfeeding or diaper changes or soothing sad babies. He jumps in with both feet. I am so thankful he is a hands-on daddy.
The boys are growing SO well. They are getting big--FAST. In the first two weeks, Felix gained 1.5 lbs and Milo gained 1.25 lbs! They are not identical, and we have been able to tell them apart since the 2nd day of their life (the 1st day was a little harder!).
Milo and Felix
Felix (happy, blessed, fortunate) Josiah (fire of the Lord; healer) was the firstborn--smaller than Milo, but definitely a firstborn. He's been fussier than Milo and more tense. He has deep set eyes, and he makes the funniest face where his eyes move back and forth. We call him "Shifty Eyes." He is so sweet and has a tiny head. He is a BLESSING from the Lord, and he is part of the healing God has done in our hearts after losing a baby last year.
Felix Josiah
Milo (merciful and generous) Zane (God is gracious) was our secondborn. He is a chunk. Geidl babies are long and skinny, and we've yet to have one that is a roly-poly butterball. I don't know if Milo will be that baby, but he is getting heavy!!! His cheeks might weigh a couple of pounds by themselves! He's generally pretty content and quiet, but the last week, he has showed us he can scream with the best of 'em! His hair is reddish (not nearly as red as Samuel's, but definitely reddish) and he looks a lot like Samuel did as a baby. He is such a gift of mercy and grace--not just one baby but TWO!!! Milo was our second blessing in this pregnancy--the gift we didn't expect. He is a picture of restoration for us.
Milo Zane
Thank you for supporting us prayerfully in our journey. Please continue to do so!!!
Friday, December 24, 2010
Having a Heart Like Mary
Though I don't really classify myself into a Christian denomination, I have grown to love so many different traditions and can appreciate the roots of my faith. In recent years, I have really come to respect Catholicism. I was raised a Protestant, and honestly, I was taught that there were very few Catholics who really knew God. I look at that now and laugh because I have come to know so many who know Him!
I don't fully know or understand all of the Catholic teachings about Mary, but I have learned this: I have not given Mary the respect she deserves as a hero of the faith. It's easy to praise people like Moses, or Paul, or Abraham, but Mary is often overshadowed in Protestant circles.
I had the rare opportunity to identify with Mary when I gave birth to Samuel on Christmas Day. I know that December 25th isn't really the day Jesus was born, but I still found myself thinking through Mary's experience in becoming a mother to the Son of God. I understood the special feelings she probably had--being pregnant, knowing that the baby who would be born was special, knowing that she would one day have to give Him up. As I looked at Samuel, I knew that motherhood was special, and how much MORE special it was for her.
This year, I am pregnant with twin boys, Felix and Milo. I was 37 weeks yesterday, and I am so grateful that I have had a healthy pregnancy and made it to term with them. I have been struggling in my heart, though, because it is quite possible I may have a c-section. I know c-sections aren't a big deal for a lot of people. I know that people often recover quickly and well from them. I know that in the grand scheme of my life, it isn't that big of a deal. I know that it is a beautiful experience for the mommies who have them. I can't downplay the experiences of others. I KNOW it's okay, so don't feel a need to convince me of it.
But, natural birth is very important to me. It is one of my passions. It is something I have devoted time and research to, something I have experienced, and something I think women should be educated about.
In dealing with my own disappointments concerning my birthing experience, I am being taught of the Lord. He is showing me today that I can trust Him no matter the outcome. I can say like Mary, "I am the Lord’s servant,” Mary answered. “May your word to me be fulfilled." (Luke 1:38) Mary humbly accepted the Lord's will for her--to bear the Son of God while yet a virgin engaged to be married.
Mary had to sacrifice to carry Jesus. She could have said, "No, I don't think I want to do this. I'm not willing, and I don't want to ruin my reputation or my upcoming marriage. It's not convenient, and I have my whole life ahead of me." Instead, she proclaimed herself the servant of the Lord, and she welcomed the fulfillment of the angel's words.
She said, "Yes, Lord. Your will be done."
I, too, have been chosen for this. God knew these boys before I even knew they existed in my womb. He has had plans for them before the foundation of the earth. He knit them together in my body and knows them intimately. Every mother has to make a sacrifice when it comes to childbirth--whatever the form. Mine may be the pain of natural childbirth, or it may be surgery and recovery. Either way, there is a sacrifice involved (not to mention the sacrifices of caring for children!). Am I going to walk into it with a willing heart or a begrudging one?
Will I choose to have a heart like Mary's that welcomes whatever may come? Or will I demand my own way, my own timing, my own experience? I do not know what will happen. I do not know if I will get to have a natural birth or a c-section. But, I do know that His ways are higher than mine. His words for me are for good and not evil. He will not lead me down a hard path without providing the grace I need to walk it with Him.
Today, I choose Mary's response. I pray I will do the same tomorrow and each day so that I can say with full confidence, "My soul glorifies the Lord and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, for he has been mindful of the humble state of his servant. From now on all generations will call me blessed, for the Mighty One has done great things for me—holy is his name." (Luke 1:46-49)
I don't fully know or understand all of the Catholic teachings about Mary, but I have learned this: I have not given Mary the respect she deserves as a hero of the faith. It's easy to praise people like Moses, or Paul, or Abraham, but Mary is often overshadowed in Protestant circles.
I had the rare opportunity to identify with Mary when I gave birth to Samuel on Christmas Day. I know that December 25th isn't really the day Jesus was born, but I still found myself thinking through Mary's experience in becoming a mother to the Son of God. I understood the special feelings she probably had--being pregnant, knowing that the baby who would be born was special, knowing that she would one day have to give Him up. As I looked at Samuel, I knew that motherhood was special, and how much MORE special it was for her.
This year, I am pregnant with twin boys, Felix and Milo. I was 37 weeks yesterday, and I am so grateful that I have had a healthy pregnancy and made it to term with them. I have been struggling in my heart, though, because it is quite possible I may have a c-section. I know c-sections aren't a big deal for a lot of people. I know that people often recover quickly and well from them. I know that in the grand scheme of my life, it isn't that big of a deal. I know that it is a beautiful experience for the mommies who have them. I can't downplay the experiences of others. I KNOW it's okay, so don't feel a need to convince me of it.
But, natural birth is very important to me. It is one of my passions. It is something I have devoted time and research to, something I have experienced, and something I think women should be educated about.
In dealing with my own disappointments concerning my birthing experience, I am being taught of the Lord. He is showing me today that I can trust Him no matter the outcome. I can say like Mary, "I am the Lord’s servant,” Mary answered. “May your word to me be fulfilled." (Luke 1:38) Mary humbly accepted the Lord's will for her--to bear the Son of God while yet a virgin engaged to be married.
Mary had to sacrifice to carry Jesus. She could have said, "No, I don't think I want to do this. I'm not willing, and I don't want to ruin my reputation or my upcoming marriage. It's not convenient, and I have my whole life ahead of me." Instead, she proclaimed herself the servant of the Lord, and she welcomed the fulfillment of the angel's words.
She said, "Yes, Lord. Your will be done."
I, too, have been chosen for this. God knew these boys before I even knew they existed in my womb. He has had plans for them before the foundation of the earth. He knit them together in my body and knows them intimately. Every mother has to make a sacrifice when it comes to childbirth--whatever the form. Mine may be the pain of natural childbirth, or it may be surgery and recovery. Either way, there is a sacrifice involved (not to mention the sacrifices of caring for children!). Am I going to walk into it with a willing heart or a begrudging one?
Will I choose to have a heart like Mary's that welcomes whatever may come? Or will I demand my own way, my own timing, my own experience? I do not know what will happen. I do not know if I will get to have a natural birth or a c-section. But, I do know that His ways are higher than mine. His words for me are for good and not evil. He will not lead me down a hard path without providing the grace I need to walk it with Him.
Today, I choose Mary's response. I pray I will do the same tomorrow and each day so that I can say with full confidence, "My soul glorifies the Lord and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, for he has been mindful of the humble state of his servant. From now on all generations will call me blessed, for the Mighty One has done great things for me—holy is his name." (Luke 1:46-49)
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Has It Been Over A Week?
Wow, I stopped by my blog to look at my sidebar and see what was new with everyone, and I discovered that I haven't updated in 8 days. Sheesh. Sorry about that. My midwife says I have "placenta brain." Sounds kind of gross.
Well, I'll be 36 weeks tomorrow. I had a good visit with the doctor on Monday. Everything looked good--blood pressure, heartbeats, unchanged cervix. So, I really don't have anything to report--unless you want me to talk about the pain in my pelvis...
I can't believe I've made it this far already. I know for sure that my boys will be here within a month. The doctor definitely won't let me go over 40 weeks, and if these little boogers don't move, then they'll most likely be here by the end of the year. So, really, they could be here in 2 weeks. That's crazy.
I'm not really nesting. I had a spot of it a couple of weeks ago and got everything washed (with Em's help--she's my housekeeper) and ready for the room that they won't use for a while! :) When I think about what I need to do, it overwhelms me, so I just tell myself everything will work out. My, how I have changed!
Here's my mental list:
Will I actually accomplish these? I do not know. But, at least it's a start!
Well, I'll be 36 weeks tomorrow. I had a good visit with the doctor on Monday. Everything looked good--blood pressure, heartbeats, unchanged cervix. So, I really don't have anything to report--unless you want me to talk about the pain in my pelvis...
I can't believe I've made it this far already. I know for sure that my boys will be here within a month. The doctor definitely won't let me go over 40 weeks, and if these little boogers don't move, then they'll most likely be here by the end of the year. So, really, they could be here in 2 weeks. That's crazy.
I'm not really nesting. I had a spot of it a couple of weeks ago and got everything washed (with Em's help--she's my housekeeper) and ready for the room that they won't use for a while! :) When I think about what I need to do, it overwhelms me, so I just tell myself everything will work out. My, how I have changed!
Here's my mental list:
- Make a list of all the people who have volunteered to help and organize the days/numbers so they can be called in for reinforcements.
- Install the car seats in the van and make sure that Lucy's seat will actually fit in the rear seat with Sam's and Maryn's booster seats.
- If the above doesn't work, I guess we need to look for an alternative??? God altered physics for us when we put three in the backseat of our Acura Legend (one infant carseat with a base, a convertible car seat, and a booster seat); we're praying He does it again!!!
- Pack a bag for the hospital.
- Have definite child care arrangements in place.
- Revise the birth plan.
- Have a sheet explaining the kids' schedule and favorite foods and where things are located.
Will I actually accomplish these? I do not know. But, at least it's a start!
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Sacrificing Plans for Peace
I went in for my ultrasound yesterday to check out the boys' sizes and positions. Well, the little boogers have both gone transverse (that's sideways...and babies don't come out sideways, just so you know). There is still time for them to move, and my OB/Gyn friend told me that transverse is the most unstable position. Sooooooo, I am praying at least Felix will move into a head down (vertex) position.
Their measurements were funny to me because the margin of error is now up to 1 lb. :) There are some doctors out there that will make decisions to induce or c-section a baby based on their size from the ultrasound. That is not wise. Find a different doctor if your doctor does that! The margin of error is too great! And...off the soapbox. Anyway, Felix measured 5 lbs. 9 oz, and Milo measured 5 lbs. 14 oz. So technically, they are somewhere between 4.5 and 7 lbs. That's a big window!!! Either way, they're growing well, and I'm thankful.
I am retaining a lot of fluid, but my blood pressure has been consistently great and there was no protein in my urine. I'm just huge. I measured about 41.5 cm at 34.5 weeks. And I gained 12 lbs in 2.5 weeks!!!!! Crazy. Like I said, I'm retaining fluid....and the babies measured two lbs. bigger than they did a month ago! Just crazy.
As for plans, anything could happen. Anything. It is a bit unsettling to realize that any scenario could take place. They could both turn vertex, and I could have a vaginal delivery. Felix could turn vertex, and I could deliver him vaginally, but if they're unable to get Milo to turn, then I could have him breech...unless he won't come out breech and something goes wrong, and then I could have an emergency c-section. Or...neither one turns, I go into labor, get to the hospital and have an ultrasound and head to c-section, or neither turns, and I will have a scheduled c-section on Dec. 30th when I am 38 weeks.
Too many scenarios to think about.
This is stretching for me. I like to be in control, and I'm not. I've lived under the illusion often in life that I am, but I'm not. Maybe you do that too. I don't know, but one thing is certain--Jesus loves me.
That's right. Jesus loves me. As I was praying over this situation yesterday, I asked Him to speak to my heart the truth it needed to hear, and what He said came in the words of one of my favorite songs, "I am my Beloved's and He is mine, so come into Your garden and take delight in me, take delight in me...Here in your presence, God, I find my rest; here in your presence, God."
No matter what is going on around me, I can find my peace and my rest in Him. He loves me, delights in me, and wants me to rest in Him and enjoy Him.
I am really okay with that.
Their measurements were funny to me because the margin of error is now up to 1 lb. :) There are some doctors out there that will make decisions to induce or c-section a baby based on their size from the ultrasound. That is not wise. Find a different doctor if your doctor does that! The margin of error is too great! And...off the soapbox. Anyway, Felix measured 5 lbs. 9 oz, and Milo measured 5 lbs. 14 oz. So technically, they are somewhere between 4.5 and 7 lbs. That's a big window!!! Either way, they're growing well, and I'm thankful.
I am retaining a lot of fluid, but my blood pressure has been consistently great and there was no protein in my urine. I'm just huge. I measured about 41.5 cm at 34.5 weeks. And I gained 12 lbs in 2.5 weeks!!!!! Crazy. Like I said, I'm retaining fluid....and the babies measured two lbs. bigger than they did a month ago! Just crazy.
As for plans, anything could happen. Anything. It is a bit unsettling to realize that any scenario could take place. They could both turn vertex, and I could have a vaginal delivery. Felix could turn vertex, and I could deliver him vaginally, but if they're unable to get Milo to turn, then I could have him breech...unless he won't come out breech and something goes wrong, and then I could have an emergency c-section. Or...neither one turns, I go into labor, get to the hospital and have an ultrasound and head to c-section, or neither turns, and I will have a scheduled c-section on Dec. 30th when I am 38 weeks.
Too many scenarios to think about.
This is stretching for me. I like to be in control, and I'm not. I've lived under the illusion often in life that I am, but I'm not. Maybe you do that too. I don't know, but one thing is certain--Jesus loves me.
That's right. Jesus loves me. As I was praying over this situation yesterday, I asked Him to speak to my heart the truth it needed to hear, and what He said came in the words of one of my favorite songs, "I am my Beloved's and He is mine, so come into Your garden and take delight in me, take delight in me...Here in your presence, God, I find my rest; here in your presence, God."
No matter what is going on around me, I can find my peace and my rest in Him. He loves me, delights in me, and wants me to rest in Him and enjoy Him.
I am really okay with that.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Just checkin' in.
Wish I had more to say. I am checking in to say, "Hello!" and then I will disappear again for a bit.
I am really tired. My friend, Tina, helped me make up five different meals today, and we did double portions and froze half. I am EXHAUSTED. It was really wonderful though, both to see her and visit and get so much accomplished today.
I think I am going to hold off on extra cooking for now. I'm too big to be on my feet for this long at a time. I am estimating that I have about 17 meals in my deep freeze for now. This will come in handy once the delivered meals have ended.
I am feeling alright. I have made it to 34 weeks today. I am praying for 3 more. I slept better last night than I have in awhile. The boys moved somehow off of my pelvis and I don't feel as much pain there. That is a blessing. I go to the doctor, ultrasound, and midwife on Monday, so I'll have more news then as to how things are going. I appreciate your prayers.
Well, it is time for me to go supervise the kids as they clean up their room. The house helpers will come tomorrow; I can't wait. I am going to kick back.
Adios!
I am really tired. My friend, Tina, helped me make up five different meals today, and we did double portions and froze half. I am EXHAUSTED. It was really wonderful though, both to see her and visit and get so much accomplished today.
I think I am going to hold off on extra cooking for now. I'm too big to be on my feet for this long at a time. I am estimating that I have about 17 meals in my deep freeze for now. This will come in handy once the delivered meals have ended.
I am feeling alright. I have made it to 34 weeks today. I am praying for 3 more. I slept better last night than I have in awhile. The boys moved somehow off of my pelvis and I don't feel as much pain there. That is a blessing. I go to the doctor, ultrasound, and midwife on Monday, so I'll have more news then as to how things are going. I appreciate your prayers.
Well, it is time for me to go supervise the kids as they clean up their room. The house helpers will come tomorrow; I can't wait. I am going to kick back.
Adios!
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
I Need YOUR Expertise!
I am contemplating spending a day in the kitchen (hopefully with some friends) cooking and freezing meals to fill my freezer for the zombie days ahead. It's not really an apocalyptic thing, I just know that the friends delivering meals thing won't last forever. Sigh.
So, here's what I need from YOU:
Any advice in this department is appreciated!!!!
So, here's what I need from YOU:
- Any food freezing tips
- What kind of containers do you use?
- Do you thaw food prior to cooking it or do you cook it frozen?
- What about soups? How do you thaw/reheat those?
- Is it better to have completely cooked a meal before freezing it or partially?
- Anything else you can think of?
- How long should a meal stay in the freezer?
- Any special products that have made food freezing better for you?
Any advice in this department is appreciated!!!!
Thursday, October 28, 2010
What We're Doing
What we're doing about Halloween:
We aren't the celebratory type when it comes to scary stuff, so we are buying some candy, stuff for s'mores, and we're building a bonfire in our yard. We're gonna veg out with our kids and make ourselves a little sick with sweets. You are welcome to join us.
What we're doing about getting ready for babies:
We are buying a bunch of stuff. We haven't registered anywhere--too much hassle. We've got our carseats which is huge. We are contemplating having them in the pack and play in our room, but it won't fit well on the side of the bed. Anyone want to make me a cradle? I didn't want to pay $150 for a bassinet. Will be checking into co-sleepers as a cheaper alternative. I've got sheets, mattress pads, towels, washcloths. What do we need? Clothes. And I need to buy the rest of the cloth diapers I will need. I'll use disposables until they're about 8-9 lbs. I guess we need those too.
What we're doing for my birthday?
Ask Dave. He better come up with something good. :) Look out 31.
And Lucy's birthday???
I'm planning a party for her a few days before OUR birthday. Yes, we share our birthday. So, party for her, and I get Birthweek 2010.
What we're doing for Thanksgiving:
Dave's mom and grandma are coming to cook. Dave is on call. I plan on watching the parade.
What we're doing about Sam's Christmas Birthday:
Well, it all depends on when these boys arrive. I would like to have a party for Sam with some of his friends a few weeks before Christmas. I'll be 37 weeks on Dec. 23rd, so I could have babies by Christmas Day or maybe not! I have no clue. This one is being played by ear. As is Christmas. I am planning on a fake tree this year because it may be a while before we're able to take one down. :)
What we're doing about Christmas gifts:
I don't know. We're thinking donations to charities in people's names. We did this one year before, and we didn't get much reaction...don't know if that was good or bad! Whatever we do, it's gotta be simple.
What we're doing about staying sane:
We are taking life one day at a time--with as much pre-planning as possible! :) No, really, we are not worrying and fretting over how things are going to go once our darlings are born. We are learning to be content and trust our Father to provide what we need in terms of help and sleep and childcare. We are trying to enjoy our time with our three children before life gets crazy. We are hoping we can stay focused on our Father and His love in the midst of all of these changes. He has been so good and faithful and kind to us, and we are so thankful for Him.
We aren't the celebratory type when it comes to scary stuff, so we are buying some candy, stuff for s'mores, and we're building a bonfire in our yard. We're gonna veg out with our kids and make ourselves a little sick with sweets. You are welcome to join us.
What we're doing about getting ready for babies:
We are buying a bunch of stuff. We haven't registered anywhere--too much hassle. We've got our carseats which is huge. We are contemplating having them in the pack and play in our room, but it won't fit well on the side of the bed. Anyone want to make me a cradle? I didn't want to pay $150 for a bassinet. Will be checking into co-sleepers as a cheaper alternative. I've got sheets, mattress pads, towels, washcloths. What do we need? Clothes. And I need to buy the rest of the cloth diapers I will need. I'll use disposables until they're about 8-9 lbs. I guess we need those too.
What we're doing for my birthday?
Ask Dave. He better come up with something good. :) Look out 31.
And Lucy's birthday???
I'm planning a party for her a few days before OUR birthday. Yes, we share our birthday. So, party for her, and I get Birthweek 2010.
What we're doing for Thanksgiving:
Dave's mom and grandma are coming to cook. Dave is on call. I plan on watching the parade.
What we're doing about Sam's Christmas Birthday:
Well, it all depends on when these boys arrive. I would like to have a party for Sam with some of his friends a few weeks before Christmas. I'll be 37 weeks on Dec. 23rd, so I could have babies by Christmas Day or maybe not! I have no clue. This one is being played by ear. As is Christmas. I am planning on a fake tree this year because it may be a while before we're able to take one down. :)
What we're doing about Christmas gifts:
I don't know. We're thinking donations to charities in people's names. We did this one year before, and we didn't get much reaction...don't know if that was good or bad! Whatever we do, it's gotta be simple.
What we're doing about staying sane:
We are taking life one day at a time--with as much pre-planning as possible! :) No, really, we are not worrying and fretting over how things are going to go once our darlings are born. We are learning to be content and trust our Father to provide what we need in terms of help and sleep and childcare. We are trying to enjoy our time with our three children before life gets crazy. We are hoping we can stay focused on our Father and His love in the midst of all of these changes. He has been so good and faithful and kind to us, and we are so thankful for Him.
Monday, October 18, 2010
The Anticipation of The Push
I miss running. This weather makes me want to get outside and run. It's so nice and beautiful most days. I miss having that goal to accomplish--the way I had to push myself a little farther and quicker each run. I miss the quietness of it as well as the pounding rhythms in my earbuds.
These days I spend mostly sitting. My stomach is swollen and large and disproportionate to my body. Little wiggles on the inside remind me that this is a temporary existence. Soon, I will be cuddling two sweet little boys, nursing them, patting them, shushing them, rocking them, and letting them fall asleep on my chest.
While I wait, I dream about Springtime and how my body will be ready to be challenged again. I am eager for this, but I don't rush it. I want to drink in these moments before they're gone--flip flops in my belly, hiccups in my belly, babies bouncing and growing and getting stronger in my belly. I will soon be pushing myself and my body will be challenged in childbirth with a pounding rhythm all its own--not even running compares with that.
So, for now, I am content to be still. The challenge nears, and I am ready.
These days I spend mostly sitting. My stomach is swollen and large and disproportionate to my body. Little wiggles on the inside remind me that this is a temporary existence. Soon, I will be cuddling two sweet little boys, nursing them, patting them, shushing them, rocking them, and letting them fall asleep on my chest.
While I wait, I dream about Springtime and how my body will be ready to be challenged again. I am eager for this, but I don't rush it. I want to drink in these moments before they're gone--flip flops in my belly, hiccups in my belly, babies bouncing and growing and getting stronger in my belly. I will soon be pushing myself and my body will be challenged in childbirth with a pounding rhythm all its own--not even running compares with that.
So, for now, I am content to be still. The challenge nears, and I am ready.
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